Happy.

     They say you can never find a place to hide in this strange world. That's quite true. Today when I felt losing myself , I wanted to arrive in a quiet place to release my insaneness and distraction delivered from the other " devil me " . On thinking , the dyke conjured up. But I didn't lose my senses at that irritating moment . I hesitated , because of the fear about being mugged . My hesitation burned the fuse of the dynamite-like madness which soon dxploded in my mind . Why ? A massive question mark hit me , but no response . Eventually I risked my safety . I stepped out the classroom but remembered the exam in the evening , I had to come back on time . I tried hard to suppress myself and took my watch with me . I rushed out the classroom door , the school gate and moved directly towards the dyke . But I couldn't get someone out of my head and I didn't know why . The containings in my head was stirred together and I wasn't totally concious about what I was doing . I was to sit down and eat something but suddenly changed my mind . I walked and walked , indistinctly heard some familiar voices , ignored them , and walked . Ultimately I got my feet on the glorious huge dyke . Even though so , I was afraid of being regarded crazy so I pretended quite calm .

      It seems that I always have the awareness that I'm on important element of the world , and that my life root digs deep in society . So I couldn't liberate myself from the mind prison , leading to I can't be myself in the place that no one knows me . I am willing to leave this real complex world for a while but meanwhile locking myself tightly to the world itself . As if I were doing something while saying : " don't do it , don't do it " but couldn't help doing . When am I able to jump out this strange circle ? Why can't I put aside anything ? I finally understand the death of Corbain . He may had suffered from the " circle " for years but couldn't find a way out , so he chosed death . He achieved . He gave up everything including his beloved daughter and wife , his music and his life all to get rid of the circle . But I can't . Perhaps seeing from this aspect , not jumping out is a wise choice . Plus , life itself is a beautiful face with some freckles . So I only have the courage to just scream out ( but not do ) : I wanna HIDE , I wanna DIE .

     Walking down the dyke , a new round began .

数理化作业一律提前做完。

学习基本没压力。

花掉整个晚上去想" Eskimo Dog "那道物理题。

从来没将生物书带回过家。

遇到了我做得到但别人不会做的数学题。

每天看21st Century

不喝咖啡每天只睡六个半小时但上课几乎不打瞌睡。

胡编乱造的作文得了55分。